Dear Sweet Evelyn,
That’s what I have come to call you, sweet Evelyn. And I wonder if it’s some instinct that I have or your coming personality because Sienna was “Little Miss” and she is certainly that. You are sitting in the bouncy chair beside me making all kinds of noises, very sweet little sounds, and just now you were smiling to me as I echoed them back to you. It’s an amazing thing, the smile of a baby. It can make you forget hours of screaming the night before or the shirt you just had to change because it was covered in puke. That was your first smirk, you had covered me in spit-up (and yourself too) and I had you on the changing table and I said, “Evelyn! You just puked all over me!” and you smirked. I sense that some day, I’ll have to watch out because you and your sister are a bit impish sometimes. Your first wide open mouth baby smile was when your dad came home from work and he peeked over my shoulder while you were (again!) on the changing table.
We had a rough go of it for a little while, but I feel like we may be coming out of the woods (although I really love the woods so I don’t know if that’s the greatest analogy). As I hope you will learn someday through the amazing joy of having your own children, the second one is hard. It’s not hard in that my life already revolved around other people (Sienna and your dad mostly) and I spend the majority of my time taking care of others. I’m used to that now. But it is hard in that I never have enough time for either of you. You are always being put in contraptions so I can make dinner or do something frivolous like go to the bathroom and Sienna is always being put off because I’m doing one of those things or taking care of you. I say, “Just a minute,” SO many times EVERY day. Sometimes I panic and the downward spiral starts: I’m not stimulating her enough therefore she won’t develop correctly and she’ll be really far behind and never learn to lift her head and it will be all my fault! I blame it on hormones, though those have mostly evened out by now.
And also for a while (at least a month, I swear) you’ve been freaking out from about 7:30-9:30 every night. The definition of freaking out is: screaming and/or crying unless we can cajole you into sleep, said sleep is usually very light and prone to being disturbed. The past few nights have been better hence the “out of the woods” comment above. Another reason for that comment? You’re starting to interact with us more which makes everything loads more fun.
I guess aside from the freaking out, wanting to be held most of the time, and sleeping with us thing you’re a pretty easy going baby. You certainly put up with a lot more than Sienna ever had to (get used to being compared to Sienna because she’s my frame of reference for raising kids, it just comes with the territory of being the second child). You lift your head up pretty well and only wake up once a night (last night you slept for six hours!). You love to snuggle and seem to enjoy being around people, though you like me best (and sometimes I can’t wait till you’re a Daddy’s girl, but I’ll try and remember I only get these wonderful snuggles for so long). I smell your head about a million times a day (nothing beats the smell and softness of baby hair/head) and overall, I think we’re getting along well Sweet Evelyn, just don’t dwell on the fact that we forgot the camera on the way to the hospital (which is SO second child) and we’ll keep snuggling the day away.
love,
mama
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